I love when spring finally arrives. The season always renews me. It always promises that things can have a brighter side. The winter has a way of allowing me to get depressed and hate everything. As soon as the snow melts, the trees start to bud, and the flowers start to bloom the depression disappears and I am left feeling ready to be reborn.
I have been recently craving the things from my youth, the music, the feelings, and the friends. Nostalgia has really hit me hard. I uploaded the country music I loved to listen to on my iPod. I have been watching the old t.v. shows I used to watch on Netflix. I have been wanting to set up a get together for old friends. I feel as if I have been cut off from the stuff from my youth and I want to get it back.
Of course all of this could just be caused because I will be turning the big 3-0 this November. I have a few goals I want to reach before then, like get my license, publish my first of many novels, and find out just what kind of an impact I’ve had on peoples lives. I know turning 30 is not the end of the world, but the beginning of bigger and better things.
God is really trying to get my attention this year. I know I am claimed by Him and it is time I start living for Him. He has filled my life with many things and He has blessed me with my own house. It’s time I start recharging my faith to match my hope of bigger and better things and just love life the way He has intended.
God has also made me realize that it’s time to forgive her. My sister. She has been staying with me for about a month and a half now, because my dad asked me. It’s time to let it go. I just don’t know how to do it. It’s never been easy for me to let things go. I don’t even know where to start, but I’m sure God will show me the way.
My sister has been clean and sober for a year and is now going to become a sponsor for AA/NA beginners. She has worked hard to get this far. I am proud of her for coming this far. She has had false starts before, but this time I think she is really trying. She has had a rough life, some of which I know came out of her own dumb decisions, but she has worked hard to overcome her bad choices.
She has helped me out a lot while staying here. More than I can say about my brother and his family. She does the dishes, watches the kids, helps me with the laundry, and gets to all of her appointments on foot. My dad is giving me money for her to stay here and she has helped out with food. She cooks some nights and gets my daughter on the bus in the morning too. She has done so much for me in the small amount of time she has been here.
I have also started writing again. I have a book series in mind and I am planning on getting it written, and finished. I have a tenancy to start a story, but not finish. I am determined to get this series written and soon before the characters flee my head. I will be starting a blog page with my nome de plume and keep updates there and the Facebook page I created. I will post it when I get it going.
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